I don't have a broken heart.
but it's most certainly cracked.
twice in one summer. What a way to end it.
i just want to go back to how it was.
even though he says we're still best friends,
i can't ignore the ache pulsing in my heart.
its never easy, accepting rejection.

i didn't think something so small would mean so much.
i underestimated how large this had grown.
and this is how i pay for it...

someone, give me strength.
help me find the one I'm meant to be with.
or find someone willing to give me the chance.
I've never asked for more than a chance...
what have I done wrong?

I am sorry, dear blog, to have neglected you so this past month!
I was so busy with class and at the beach with my friends.... and really had nothing to input into your wonderful virtual pages....

the only thing on my mind is him...
I just wish I knew if I was on his.....